Dangal star Zaira Wasim has taken to social media to confess how she’s been going through severe depression that even made her suicidal in the past.
She posted a gut-wrenching confession on Instagram saying that she’d been ’embarrassed’ and ‘scared’ to admit her illness due to stigma attached. She wrote, “I’m writing this to admit and confess that I, for a very long time have been suffering from severe anxiety and depression. It’s almost been four years and I’ve always been embarrassed and scared to admit it not only because of the stigma that goes around with the word depression with it but most importantly because of always being told that ‘You’re too young to be depressed’ or ‘It’s just a phase’.”
Zaira said that her frequent anxiety attacks even pushed her to develop suicidal thoughts. She wrote, “Perhaps it could’ve been ‘just a phase’ but this awful phase has put me in situations I never wished or chose to be in. Popping five antidepressants every day, anxiety attacks, being rushed to the hospital in the middle of the night, feeling empty, restless, anxious, hallucinations, having sore limbs from sleeping too much to not being able to sleep for weeks, from overeating to starving myself, unexplained fatigue, body ache, self loathing, nervous breakdowns, suicidal thoughts were all parts of this phase.”
She continued, “I’ve had and I’m still having, losing count of the number of times I have been told- ‘It’s nothing, you’re too young to be depressed…But I knew- I always did and I still do. I remember being told that there’s no such thing as depression, it only happens to people to were above 25. But I could never actually accept the fact that I suffer from a disorder called depression- that affects almost 350 million people worldwide; without asking for their permission to ruin their mental and emotional state or asking them their age.”
“And I would always lie to myself and others and just shake my head in yes when they would say – It’s nothing, you’re too young to be depressed, I would just lie to myself and call the doctors crazy. Depression and anxiety is not a feeling, it’s an illness. Its not somebody’s choice or fault. It can affect anyone-anytime.
“Today I’m finally ready to understand my illness and embrace the version of myself which I’ve always wanted to accept, without being ashamed, embarrassed and having the fear of being judged for it,” she added.
She ended her message with the hope that the coming holy month of Ramadan may help her in figuring ‘things out.’ She asked her fans to remember her in their prayers.
“I just need a complete break from everything, my social life, my work, school and especially social media. I’m really looking forward to the holy month of Ramadhan as it may be the perfect opportunity to figure things out. Please remember me in your prayers.
“A big hug to all the people who stood by me through all my emotional ups and downs, especially my family, I can never thank you enough for being so patient,” she added.
Her story evoked overwhelming reactions from her fans as many wished speedy recovery and peace for her. “Allah aapke zehan me sukoon paida karey …Jald se jald aapko in sab se baahir nikale aameen,” wrote a fan. “Don’t be depressed zaira believe and have trust on god he will bless you with happiness,” wrote another fan. “Appreciated #zairawaseem..u r veryy strong..be patient n fight with this bluddy disorder called Depression..InshaAllah u will be succeeded,” wrote Hashir. User Logan wrote, “It’s nothing to get worried about , all our love and support is always with you and will always be… get well soon.”
However, the young star was also subjected to nasty trolling with many calling Zaira’s poor health condition her ‘Karma.’ Usxer Arindam Borah wrote, “Hope u know karma is a BITCH…. Remember that Flight Incident …… as for name and frame.. dear! (sic)” Another user Azaan said that it was an another stunt by the young actor. He wrote, “Perhaps a stunt to again come into limelight after it has decreased drastically over you. (sic)” “U r the one who is responsible for shaming of muslims especially Kashmir,” wrote another user Tawfeeq. “Karma madam.. you framed an innocent man wrongly.. haunting you back,” wrote another user.
Zaira was in the news recently after she sensationally alleged in December last year that she was molested on an Air Vistara flight by a man sitting behind. The video of Zaira with tears rolling down her face had gone viral on social media platforms.
Zaira had said in the video, “So, I just landed and you know the whole irony of this is that the guy… this is not done at all. This is not the way, this is not a girl should be made to feel because this is terrible. Is this how they are doing to take care of girls? No one will help us if we don’t decide to help ourselves. This is the worst thing.”